STRONG WOMAN VS A WOMAN OF STRENGTH

A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape...
but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape...

A strong woman isn't afraid of anything...
but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear...

A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her...
but a woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone...

A strong woman walks sure footedly...
but a woman of strength knows God will catch her if she falls...

A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face...
but a woman of strength wears grace...

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey...
but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong...

CELIK AKAL

hari ni memang bad day sy o. memang banyak yang buat sy stress.
tapi bila sa jalan jalan di blog kawan sy...sy dapat celik akal.
kebetulan, dia pun ada post pasal stress2 ni.
memang betul semua orang ada stress kan.
jadi kita mesti pandai mo control diri dan kasi lega diri sendiri.
dan hari ni sy ada buat juga macam macam cara mo kasi lega diri sy.
sy teriak satorang..nda jua jadi. doa...ada.
tapi sy ni jenis kalo yang ada masalah memang nda dapat kasi tinggal tu masalah telampau cepat. pastu sy try tidur mo kasi lupa semua.
tapi ntah sepa la ni yang bengong betul ni balik balik misscall.
kalo sy ada kredit mo ja sy call cakap jan kacau lagi. adoiii...
pastu sy tengok movie....tapi sy masih jua ingat tu problem.
sy ingat cakap kawan sy satorang ni...kalo dia ada problem...
dia tidur pastu bangun dia nda fikir lagi pasal tu problem dia.
sy mo da'a macam tu o. pastu bila jalan jalan d blog bespren sy..
sy tenampak post dia. cakap pasal stress2 ni.
bezanya..kawan sy banyak cakap pasal mo kasi rasional pikiran daripada sy...
banyak cakap pasal frust pasal ni benda.
kalo la sy boleh pikir macam dia.
tapi sy dapat celik akal. bukan semua orang setiap saat ada untuk kita.
kadang kadang kita hanya ada diri sendiri. sy mo betul pikiran sa macam tu o. bezanya...sy ni neurotic lebih. hehe...problem lagi.
sudahlah ambi kaunseling..macam mana o mo jadi kaunselor kalo pikiran pun sempit. betul kan. satu benda lagi sa blajar..
.teda guna mo susah hati telampau.
dan kita tidak dapat sentiasa bergantung sama orang lain.
true! oh God, sy mo jadi rasional macam tu. skarang, sy mo ok sudah ni.
memang macam malas mo pikir problem kan.
kadang kadang, kita hanya ada diri sendiri.

BAD DAY!

teriak teriak dalam bilik macam orang gilak. nda tau mo meluah sama sepa sebab sy sendiri sendiri. bila sy mo cakap sama orang lain, sy rasa macam sy buat dorang borink dengan sy. jadi sy fikir bagus sy stay dalam bilik cuba kasi tenang diri sendiri. tapi sy nda dapat. sy betul betul stress. banyak benda yang buat sy stress kebelakangan ni. cuma sebelum ni sy cuba sabar. cuba tenang. memang dapat. tapi bila makin banyak benda yang buat stress sy nda dapat handle satorang. sy teda sepa sepa tempat mo meluah. sy cakap satorang. tapi sy rasa macam gilak pla bila becakap satorang. time sy susah macam ni pla sy teda sepa sepa. sy mo happy. sy nda mo stress macam ni. sy nda tau mo share sama sepa. kalo sy share sini blog pun..bukan ni blog dapat bagi sy nasihat. bukan dapat bagi sy sokongan. teda. sy teda sepa sepa mo bagi sokongan. sy mo share sama mama di kampung tapi mama nda sihat. takkan sy mo kasi tambah susah hati dia pasal sy. sy macam sot da ni. nda terurus sudah. tapi s betul betul perlu somebody yang sy boleh talk to. boleh sokong sy. boleh bagi sa nasihat. tapi teda. sy malu mo share sama kawan kawan.sy tau cerita sy buat orang borink. tapi...sy just need somebody. sy cuba tengok movie supaya sy lupa apa yang buat sy stress. tapi nda dapat. sy cuba tidur. nda dapat. sy betul betul stress. sy stress. sa teda sepa sepa bila sy perlu.

HARI INI EMO.

kadang kadang,
sa rasa macam teda yang luv sa o.

macam teda kawan...macam teda sepa sepa. mama sa luv sa. adik adik luv sa.
tu sa tau... tapi, sa mo jua kena luv sama kawan kawan.
tapi...macam teda kawan yang luv sa. ni kali la paling!
PATHETIC! macam len pla bila sa rasa macam ni.
macam... 'mental' la pla.
sa nda suka ba rasa macam ni. sebab sa sendiri ni sakit.
kalo boleh, sa mo jadi macam orang len.
orang cakap..bagus jadi diri sendiri.
camana kalo bila sa jadi diri sendiri sakit betul rasa dia.
sa jeles bila tengok kawan kawan len macam saling luv luv.
nda macam sa..slalu sendiri. bila sa mo try dekat sama kawan kawan...
sa rasa macam sa INVISIBLE seja.
kadang kadang, bila sa makin kejar kawan kawan,
makin lae sa rasa macam tertinggal di belakang.
bila sa telampau luv sama tu kawan sa...
sa tau dia nda luv sa macam sa luv dia. 'mental' ka sa??
sa tau kita nda boleh harap orang len luv kita macam kita luv dorang...
tapi bila sa macam ni... sa rasa sa ni...
SUFFERING FROM A LACK OF LUV.
betul betul la sa ni PATHETIC o.
mungkin sebab ni jua sa slalu kena kasi tinggal sama kawan kawan.
mungkin jua sebab sa nda tau camana cara mo bekawan.
mungkin sebab sa bukan kawan yang lucu.
mungkin jua sebab sa slalu emosi.
sa bukan jenis kawan yang 'THE BEST TYPE'.
sa slalu buat salah. slalu minta tolong sama kawan kawan.
mungkin sebab ni kawan kawan nda luv sa.
slalu lae sa kasi sakit ati kawan. sebab tu kawan kawan nda luv sa. sa slalu jadi jeles bila dengar kawan kawan ketawa hepi... sa slalu sendiri sendiri.
SEMUA NI SEBAB SALAH SA..

FAIRY TALES

since i was a little girl, i fall so much in love with fairy tales.

fairy tales told about finding a prince charming and fall in love and live happily ever after.
and i do believe in fairy tales.

Ariel was such a cute girl! and she's got an amazing voice ever!

i love this song:PART OF THAT WORLD

Maybe he's right. Maybe there is something the matter with me.
I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.
Look at this stuff,Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl,The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove,Treasures untold
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Looking around here you think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got gadgets and gizmos a-plenty
I've got whozits and whatzits galore
You want thingamabobs?
I've got twenty!
But who cares?No big deal
I want more...
I wanna be where the people are
I wanna see, wanna see them dancin'
Walking around on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - feet!
Flippin' your fins, you don't get too far
Legs are required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down a - what's that word again?
Street...
Up where they walk, up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wonderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world...
What would I give if I could live out of these waters?
What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?
Bet'cha on land they understand
That they don't reprimand their daughters
Proper women sick of swimmin',Ready to stand.
And ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a fire and why does it - what's the word?
Burn?
When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that world up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world...

i love Cinderella the most!

i love this song too: A DREAM IS A WISH YOUR HEART MAKES

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true
The dreams that i wish will come true
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

Beauty and The Beast teached me not to judge people by his look. like my mom always said, dont judge a book by its cover!


and this: BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Than somebody bends
Unexpectedly
Just a little change
Small, to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the beast
Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will arise
Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong
Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast.

but then, i realize...
fairy tales doesnt only talk about some prince charming..or fall in love..or live happily ever after.
it is about fulfilling our dreams and about standing strong for what we believe in.
never let the fear striking out,
keep you from playing the game.
fairy tales doesnt come true but dreams do come true.
yay!

HUH!

selesai satu paper hari ini. sekarang saya rasa ini----->

soalan nda susah sangat...memang nda susah pun kalo ada revision before exam. ni...berabis baca nota pun teda guna kalo nda masuk otak..adehhhh betul2 la niari spoil betul oo.. soalan exam sem2 lepas ba kena kasi kuar. bulat bulat lae tu..

tapi sa nda baca soalan...sa teda bacaaaaa!! adoi..kenapa la sa nda baca soalan tu. padahal before tu sa cakap cakap sama kawan sa...
"mesti soalan sem lepas tu kena kasi kuar. lecturer kan malas buat soalan."
tapi sa nda baca...betul betul la sa ni ooo...

dapat jawab jua sikit sikit...tapi bila ingat tu kertas soalan sem lepas yang berlimpangan di bilik...menyesal betul ni. depan mata ba...tapi gara gara malas.

sem depan sa nda mo
macam ni lagiiiii!!!

CEMBURU

saya cemburu.

bila kawan kawan satu rumah masing masing mengisi borang untuk dapatkan perkhidmatan streamix di rumah. maksud saya, rumah d kampung.

sebenarnya....
bukan itu yang buat saya cemburu. bukan perkhidmatan streamix itu...tapi.. saya cemburu sebab kawan kawan dapat notebook percuma. notebook saiz keci yang saya idam idamkan. saya dan kawan saya adiq, hanya melihat betapa gembiranya kawan kawan yang lain mengisi borang itu. borang hijau dan borang berwarna merah jambu. sedih dan cemburu. tapi apa boleh buat..kami orang susah.
tidak mampu bersuka suka dengan benda itu. saya ingin call mama. tanya mama sama ada boleh ka saya menempah benda ini, tapi saya tau kalau saya tanya, mama akan dapat detect betapa saya mahukan benda ini. tapi kami orang susah. saya takut saya buat mama sedih. jadi, saya hanya melihat kawan kawan berwajah ria dan ketawa riang. saya cuba pujuk hati, mengatakan di rumah ada enam adik beradik yang lain. saya cuba pujuk lagi, kalau sudah kerja nanti boleh beli benda yang saya mahu. pujuk lagi, rm38 sebulan itu sudah boleh beli berbagai jenis makanan yang boleh isi perut dan jadi kenyang. lalu, saya senyum. tapi...saya masih cemburu. tidak apalah...

lain kali saja.

MY FRIEND, DAKOTA

10 pm last night...
i saw Dakota.
she looks so depress and gloomy.
i wanna ask her..
why did she looks that way.
but i cant...coz she is keep crying.
i have no idea what to do...
then i just let her crying in my shoulder.
if only i knew why did she was crying...

2 am...
i was about to sleep.
Dakota call and she said she was on
her way to meet me.
i am not surprise...

i knew Dakota.
she was in a bad situation.
when Dakota arrived...
we have this conversation.
a very long conversation.
and i guess it is one of our deep conversation.
all this time...
she has nobody to talk to...
i am the one.

she told me that she feel so lonely.
she's deeply wanna be loved.
then as always i told her..

"i deeply loves you"

but she says...
"it is not enough!"

again...i am not surprise.
she wanted everyone loves her.
and i told her it is impossible!
and she's start crying.

i am wordless!

Dakota teached me about something...
we have to appreciate our child. they're gift from above. parents are the only one who could shape them. but Dakota's parents were failed. she's suffering from a lack of love. that is why she wanted everyone to loves her because she never been loved by her parents.

GHOST STORY I GUESS -_-

t h e s u i c i d e s o n g

Gloomy Sunday - the notorious 'Hungarian Suicide Song' - was written in 1933. Its melody and original lyrics were the creation of Rezső Seress, a self-taught pianist and composer born in Hungary in 1899.

The crushing hopelessness and bitter despair which characterised the two stanza penned by Seress were superseded by the more mournful, melancholic verses of Hungarian poet László Jávor.

When the song came to public attention it quickly earned its reputation as a 'suicide song'. Reports from Hungary alleged individuals had taken their lives after listening to the haunting melody, or that the lyrics had been left with their last letters.

The lyricists Sam M. Lewis and Desmond Carter each penned an English translatation of the song. It was Lewis's version, first recorded by Hal Kemp and his Orchestra, with Bob Allen on vocals (1936), that was to become the most widely covered.

The popularity of Gloomy Sunday increased greatly through its interpretation by Billie Holiday (1941). In an attempt to alleviate the pessemistic tone a third stanza was added to this version, giving the song a dreamy twist, yet still the suicide reputation remained. Gloomy Sunday was banned from the playlists of major radio broadcasters around the world. The B.B.C. deemed it too depressing for the airwaves.

Despite all such bans, Gloomy Sunday continued to be recorded and sold.

People continued to buy the recordings; some committed suicide.

Rezső Seress jumped to his death from his flat in 1968.

(but do you ever heard: if you dont believe it, it's never work!) :D

ON THE WINGS OF A BUTTERFLY: BFF. I MEAN, FOREVER :)

Your friendship is special
Like the flowers that bloom
Or when a butterfly emerges
From within its cocoon...

You remind me of that butterfly
Loving and free
Bright and colorful
For the world to see...

We will share sunshine and rainbows
Sometimes, the rain and the snow
We'll stand together through it
While the cold winds blow...

When the time is right
We won't stop to ask "Why?"
Our friendship will take flight
On the wings of a butterfly ...

i love you BFF!